Vale ‘Holly the Beautiful & Patient’
A wise person once told me that I would need to toughen up to live on the land.
And being the practical soul I am, I agreed. However the inner, deeply emotional part of me failed to get that memo. And for the third time in six months (first Pickles then baby Annie) I find myself struggling as my loved ones adjust once more to agaping hole left in our extended family.
Beautiful black broodmare, Holly was hit by colic over the weekend. She is a serial colicker – we have twice managed to intervene and get her healthy again. But yesterday we couldn’t. Despite hours of walking her, dosing her on remedies (both vet-recoomended and ‘natural’ variety), our darling 23-year-old black mare would not recover.
Deciding to help ease her terrible pain in the only way possible was hard. But it was undoubtedly the right thing to do.
While we have loved and cared for Holly for the past eight years, she actually belonged to my mother – so this little tragedy has hit two households. As the initial grief ebbs a little, I know that we are so thankful for many things:
- for having a vet who willingly diverted from her own weekend (and road trip) to inspect Holly for us, and deliver the definite news (being a vet must be SO hard sometimes)
- for the chance to ease her pain, in being here and not away when this happened
- for my husband girding himself to do a job that must come under ‘toughest tasks ever’
- for having two gorgeous fillies – Chi Chi and iTunes – whose antics and sweet natures will continue to delight us and remind us of their Mama
- for all the cuddles we got to have with her before she left us.
I will just share a few of my ‘Holly Moments’ here – so you (and I) can be reminded just how wonderful and patient and sweet she was, and how blessed we have been.
Holly’s legacies: Chi Chi and iTunes…
I know one thing for sure and certain: I am NOT tough enough.
I am not sure anyone is… for as sure as there is joy and new life, grief and death must certainly balance the scales.
And that’s a fact that is IMPOSSIBLE to avoid out here. So this ache is part of it all.
We loved you Holly. We wouldn’t have had it any other way…